Journal 2
The first month in chung Cheng
A month and thirteen days have passed since this semester. So far, it is still a fresh and novel experience for me since there is a huge difference between the previous semester and the present one.
I am not the kind of person who knows how to make new friends or interact with other people. Usually it was an awkward one, the conversation I came up with in attempt to talk to other people. I always had to walk away with a fake smile because I knew I failed again. My first semester in Chung Cheng ended up with zero friend.
In regard of how I deal with every meal, it remains the same. One of the most joyful things for me is to have a lavish lunch at the buffet in student restaurant. What could better relieve and refresh ourselves than having a great meaI after class! I always finish my lunch and dinner in student restaurant unless other plan is made. It is still the same because nothing has changed since the last semester.
For most of the time I am always alone. Some night, I cried on my bed, alone. Although having few friends is not something that matters a lot to me, I still cried several nights. I know that to some extent loneliness has become part of me, but the other part is still craving for friends.
Remember I mentioned this semester is a new experience for me. That is because I am making progress! I think I've made some really good friends, who would listen to me when I am down; who would share things with me. I really take every friendship seriously because each one is not easy to come by; each one is priceless. I still remember the first time when my friend invited me to the library to prepare mid-term exams together. That memory is unforgettable since it had two FIRST experiences to me. One is that this was the first time I entered the library of our school and it was splendid. The other is that this was the first time I spent a whole night doing the same thing as my friends and it was so heartwarming.
