Journal Writing 5

I have to say that I really learned a lot in this semester, academically or non-academically- basically almost every aspect of my life has changed to some degree. So what exactly have I learned? Well, let me start from my personal life.

When I reflect on this semester, I can say that it was as much as a tragedy for me. Why do I say that? Because I made a lot of horrible decisions which had a huge impact on my personal life, and added to the additional stress on me. I really had a hard time re-adjusting and trying to keep the balance of my life. If I had a chance to say a word to me at that moment when I was making all those horrible decisions which I hadn't realized would have had a huge effect on me, probably I would say : "Don't be stupid Jason! Do not rush to make any decision!" That's probably what I would have said.
But one day, I happened to read a book of a well-known philosopher's, and this book deals with the notion of pain and suffering. It says that what really bothers human beings is suffering, not the pain, and it is we who make ourselves keep suffering. Upon reading this book, I was like : " If only I had known it earlier." Isn't that true? We are not suffering from the pain that we think has turned our life upside down, but rather we are just suffering ourselves for not letting ourselves move on. As an old saying goes, " Time heals pain." I think the beautiful thing about time is that it moves on.
But then I was soon captured by another question, how do we not suffer that much? Well once again, I happen to read about some books of a well-famed philosopher. The idea that he proposes is that as long as we keep a faith that there is always a meaning for everything, even it's something bad, we start to not suffer. Well currently I can't say whether it's workable or not, but it sounds to me pretty logical and reasonable. Since I don't have any better strategy to stop myself from suffering at present time, I want to verify this strategy proposed by the philosopher by myself.